CHAPTER 4

UNEDITED

REAL MAN 4

Click.

Yoo Hyun opened the letter of self-introduction file.

A lot of certificates, formal volunteer work, and unnecessarily high English scores that I don’t know where to use them.

Records of school life and reasons for joining the company, etc.

It was a self-introduction letter that I read thousands of times while being an interviewer.

Yoo Hyun’s life at that time was seen at a glance through the poorly decorated content.

When I searched the drawer, I saw a pile of notes.

Traces of study were filled with no blank space, and nosebleed marks were scattered.

“You lived so hard.”

I lived in a terrible way.

I feel heavier than I want to praise the passion.

I feel like I came out because I know better than anyone else what the end will be like.

According to the records left on the cell phone, there was little relationship with friends.

There is no contact with schoolmates or seniors.

From this time on, I ran only for success.

What in the world made you do this?

Why are you so hung up on money and success?

Yoo-hyun took out the tip of his memory little by little.

Maybe it was when I came out of the army on vacation.

On the day he returned home with a glad heart, Yoo Hyun saw his father, who was squabbling with debtors, and his mother sobbing with swollen eyes.

Differential pressure tags were posted all over the house.

All that remained was debt.

The wide garden where Yoo-hyun shared his childhood and the apple tree he planted completely disappeared into the memories.

That’s when I knew.

I realized in my heart that money was really scary.

Yoo-hyun’s life, who lived without a big goal, has changed since then.

I moved my department to get a job, and somehow I struggled to get a scholarship.

All Yoo-hyun saw was a very narrow path to success.

“…….”

It’s a painful memory that changes my life, but it’s now blurred.

Maybe the feelings you are feeling now will be diluted before you know it.

If you want to live differently, the desperate wind may blow away and repeat the same mistake.

I can’t do that.

“No, you can’t.”

Yoo-hyun corrected his posture and put his hand on the keyboard.

I closed my eyes and looked back on the past 20 years.

The memory of joining Hansung Electronics and becoming the president passed like a panorama.

Those were the moments I once thought were great enough to brag about.

It was a record written thinking that it would be a compass in someone else’s life.

However, it was now a history of regret and a wrong milestone to correct.

No matter how much it was paved with a brilliant path to success, it was useless.

In the process, even those who were damaged by Yoo Hyun, who ran regardless of means, could not be hidden.

Yoo Hyun also knew.

I just looked away.

Yoo Hyun had no colleagues.

They were all competitors, or just tools for success.

I admit, you’re really capable.If you used that ability not only for your personal gain but also for your co-workers, you would have lived a better life.

The words left by Yoo-hyun’s only respected boss went through my head again.

Whenever this happens, I remember his face, which was a brake on Yoo-hyun.

However, he is a character that can’t be seen even if he wants to.

“You should have told me a little more before you left.”

by the way.

Yoohyeon suddenly realized.

He’s alive, too.

Then what?

It meant that there were still opportunities left.

I feel like I’ve got a bucket of cold water on my head.

Yoo-Hyun, who was serious, sat down.

Even if it was now, I had to change my dream.

Whether it’s CEO Han Yoo-hyun, new employee Han Yoo-hyun, or just Han Yoo-hyun, I don’t want to live a life that makes everyone unhappy like in the past.

I don’t intend to delay or run anymore.

in a hurry

When I tapped the keyboard, the way to walk was now being used on the screen.

I don’t know what to do specifically.

What’s certain is that you shouldn’t walk the same way.

From now on, it is not a life that runs forward looking at success or money.

A life of looking sideways.

It’s not a lonely life without a soul to tell.

a life rich with people’s warmth

I want to live a life that helps someone.

Yoo Hyun did not take his hands off the keyboard for a long time, imagining a new history to be rewritten in Hansung.

Night fell before I knew it.

Yoo-hyun, who was hungry with side dishes sent by his mother, opened the front door and went out.

I walked down from the fifth floor and walked on the concrete floor.

When I opened my hand and breathed heavily, the warm air entered Yoo-hyun’s lungs.

It smells like the old days.

As I walked a little, I saw a hill going up the narrow road.

As I climbed up the hill, I could see the neighborhood at a glance.

Low buildings densely packed under dim streetlights and broken concrete walls were seen.

The old cars built on the edge of the road and the signboards of the building were friendly.

The memory came back to me.

I realized that I was back in the past.

Bang, bang.

People shouted at the sound of the car horn late at night.

“Shut up!”

“That punk!”

When I turned my head, a car stopped in the corner on the hill.

He seemed unable to do this or that because he was not confident of passing through a narrow alleyway where cars were parked on both sides.

Cars on a sloping road don’t even know why they stopped.

I’m just aware that something is wrong.

I just need to take one car out…….

It seems simple from a distance.

It looks hopeless, but with a little difference, it could be completely fixed.

Suddenly, I think Yoo Hyun’s life is the same.

I don’t know where to start because it’s tangled like a thread, but the answer could have been surprisingly simple.

If you want to live a different life, you can be different.

It is also a way to throw away your past faults and act completely differently.

“Yes, you can change it little by little.I’m sure I can change it.”

Yoo-hyun’s determination flew in the air.

I slept very deeply.

When I opened my eyes, a pleasant feeling wrapped around my body.

There is no stabbing shoulder pain or chronic back pain.

Yoo-Hyun, who confirmed that he was still 20 years old, thought that he was young.

In many ways, my physical ability improved, but it was still awkward to use my body.

Suddenly, such a question occurred to me.

Can I play golf well?’

I have a theory in my head, but I don’t know if my body will follow.

Standing in front of the mirror, Yoo Hyun opened her arms and turned around.

My back turned quite gently.

“I think I can do it”.

The body remembered the movement.

It was a little awkward at first, but as I quickly adjusted, I realized that the brain controls the movement of the body.

I flinched at the thought that maybe acting would be the same as old memories.

Shaking his head.

That’s a bad thing to say.

You cannot repeat the same mistake.

Before that, it was necessary to organize the current situation of Yoo Hyun.

Dressed up and headed for Yoohyeon’s school.

I didn’t have to take any more classes because it was my graduation semester and I took the final exam.

But there was work to be done.

It’s library librarian work.

Actually, I don’t even remember.

I only had this part-time job because I barely used my pocket money and studied hard.

The way to school was very exciting.

I never went to school after graduation.

“What would it be like?”

Yoo Hyun recalled old memories while looking at the scenery passing by the window of the bus, but it was only blurry.

It was unclear what the building looked like, what the class was like, and what the club was.

Of course, I can’t think of my colleagues or juniors.

I only remember studying to death.

I definitely remembered my previous conviction.

It is a memory that came to mind clearly when he saw the letter of self-introduction, but Yoo-hyun entered the psychology department.

I think it was for fun at the time.

There was also a reason why admission was relatively easy.

Everything changed in my life after I transferred, but I think I had fun going around at that time.

I think I used to hang out with people.’

The memory of laughing and chatting with people while drinking on the lawn remained in my memory like a snapshot.

I arrived at school when I was thinking about some old ideas.

Entering the narrow back gate, I saw an old green building.

“Oh, that was the management officer.”

It was amazing.

I thought I wouldn’t have any memories, but when I saw the building, it came to my mind like a lie.

I pulled out a 100 won coffee from the vending machine on the second floor and stood in a long line in front of the photocopier.

There was a time when I went around the building in the wrong room and waited for more than an hour to meet the professor.

Yoo-hyun turned his head and looked around the school.

There was a pavilion on the pond and a wide lawn next to it.

Many students passing by were laughing haha.

Suddenly, I remembered walking on the campus street 20 years ago.

I think I know where to go.

Yoo Hyun arrived at the library without looking at the sign.

Perhaps because it is a newly built building, the exterior is quite sophisticated compared to other buildings.

When I entered the entrance connected to the first basement floor, I remembered studying in line.

I’ve been up so many nights.

Maybe, there was a canteen next to it.

When I went around the corner, there was also a canteen.

I used to eat three meals here.

It was a perfect place for Yoo Hyun because it was cheap and operated until late.

By the way, it was still a long time at school and at work.

What was so serious that he pushed himself to death?

In this situation, there would have been no time to resolve the misunderstanding even if the relationship with the parents fell apart.

Yoo Hyun, who shook his head, went up to the library on the third floor.

Click.

I opened the library door with the key in my bag and passed through the gate with my student ID.

The first thing you see is empty tables.

There were so many tables that it was better to call it a reading room than a library.

When I sat in the librarian’s seat in the center, I could clearly see the table surrounding me.

For a moment, people sitting in empty seats were depicted.

I saw a person making a line in the book so that the paper was torn unnecessarily. Some people make noise by dragging their chairs for no reason.

I remembered a person who only slept on his stomach and a person who fought for his seat.

“Yes, I observed people here.”

I just remembered.

Yoo Hyun would observe people and infer their psychology whenever he was bored here.

It wasn’t that I had great pride in psychology or regret that I couldn’t learn.

I was just curious.

The librarian was a place to observe people for work.

I had to make sure that no one took the book, no one just kept a seat, and no one ate in the library.

As a habit, I can observe people and get more and more detailed information.

That’s when I knew.

My eyes are pretty good.

At some point, I could roughly identify people just by passing by.

I spent a year and a half like that.

In the meantime, thousands of people will easily pass by, so we have observed a lot of people.

“That’s why you did.”

Yoo-hyun smiled with his back to the chair.

Yoo-hyun, who entered the company, found his big advantage in an unexpected part.

It was a fact of good observation.

I could read people’s thoughts by looking at their expressions, clothes, props, and desk seats.

Thanks to you, I was able to act according to their thoughts.

In other words, he moved tactfully.